Feel like crying:'(

Today mood is totally down by a message by two of my sec school friends about holding "HEN NIGHT" Actually i reply i might not be able to join them in the afternoon only be able to join for clubbing ..Another two jie mei of the bride was unable to attend too . Cant imaging those words out from them. C " I believe the non-participants have their reasons to miss out J one and only hens party. However, I'm sure you have marked the date and made a pact with all the sisters to celebrate this day with J It's an important and once in a life time occasion and I'm pretty sure that the bride wishes to have all your sisters (you are chosen coz u placed an important part in J life) to share her happiness! J is so excited and has taken leave to share this day with her sisters. I feel the same too, don't you all? Who wants toMiss out this special occasion??? Sisters: S and C (thank you for researching many nights on the hens party and so on in the bridesmaid dress) C (thank you for being so game for it despite you only started hanging out w J last Oct." I reply.. Actually really cant remember wat i reply just mention there are always last min things happen .. As i was so angry , deleted away all the message after reading.. I mention as i need to go with my parent to settle down my bro wedding issue . And i get reply. S "Veron, i believe c meant spending time as a group.. We appreciate your assistance to her personally but its really different when we have fun together as a group of bestie. We know how tiring wedding stuff is and we wish to really help her unwind and have fun before the big day. Its known a month ago for this hens night and all of us add in to the calendar i assume.. My thoughts - unless its my close of kins die or had accident or my sis wedding day, i would still rearrange other activities to other days. I kept my promise that i will attend and i make sure to keep my word. The purpose of even blocking the date is to know in advance and avoid no show right? Sometimes making effort requires a great determination or sometimes we just overlook on setting the right priorities.. Its no one fault, we all have free will to make decision. I am glad u are still agreeable to share the cost.. I see your sincerity there but we wish u could join us at night without hubby This two word below more hurt me ... "Well, I lose respect for ppl who made promises and are unable to deliver them... tells alot abt their personality. Period." Goes to show the importance and value of friendship." 13 years with this two friends in the end i get this from them . In the first place i never said i am not going and i can only join them after dinner .Cant i join my family member to settle the big event for my family. After reading those message my tears nearly drop down.. And i cant even talk to the bride as i know we just wan her to be happy .. Wat should i do ??? Do i deserve those words !!! I really upsad .. I start to worry wat should i do !! AM I THE TROUBLEMAKER ??? The bride to be is my very very close friend since sec school , we use to chit chat , cry , laugh , play and go to school together among 4 of us . But i not wants to made her upsad . I am so sorry . I will still be her jie mei of the day and ensure the event goes well.. Try to REN .. Listen .. Maybe after the event they will eraser my name from their list. But wat else i can do , at first will be pain but i hope time goes my pain will also goes away:(